Grish's blog

Until We Meet Again, dadu, I love you.  A note to you, heartbroken one: Today, we say our goodbyes to one of the most incredible men I have ever met in my entire life. we feel the empty void very clearly. The head of the family is no longer here with us, He lived a good life a really good one I would say. Whatever he wished wanted has always come true.  But we know that he is no longer in pain, and is now in a place that is more amazing than the best possible day here on Earth. We also know that this is just a temporary goodbye. We know we will see him again. I wrote dadu a letter a couple of days ago. I process things and express myself best in writing, so this was my way of saying goodbye to him. I never want to forget this letter. I love you, dadu . I can’t believe I’m writing this letter to you. I guess I never thought about what it would be like when you would no longer be here. You have always been such a key part of my life, and such a steadfast and healthy part; I never let mys

 Found something I wrote when I was really young and going through my second break-up. It was actually written in my diary and I thought this should make it to my blog. Found it cute. I mean heartbreaks made me write, write well :)  Blue moon rising on a stormy night The point of no return, drifting apart Whispers on the wind Words: disappointment dejection disillusioned rejection Reflections in the moment precious moments After the rain I will survive letting go Spring is coming soon a new beginning inner peace

It's dark And it's cold The night so beautiful  It's raining It's thundering Tonight is the night  I love the rain I love the thunder And the lightening too I lay under my blanket wondering With a pounding heart. Today is rainy. A chili type day, though I don’t have any. Cuddly weather, the kind I like.   It's a day off. Feels like it should be. I have spent a good chunk of it aggressively finishing all phone calls, emails, contracts.  Also planning, worrying, wishing, time wasting, resetting the wifi router, and offcourse overthinking. I have checked off a major portion of my To Do list. 10 or so items are floating around in my brain that need to be added to the To Do list but frustratingly won't come back to mind when I'm ready to write them down. More worrying follows. The house is fairly clean and neat, and that makes for a joyful yellow kitchen light across white counters, to counter the soggy greyness outside.

It has always been my favourite thing to do  - stare at the night sky. To look upward and inward. The stars above so too within. This is both our romanticism and longing. Beyond the vastness of the unknown. Magic and infinity. An unknown future. Creative and curious creatures, builders, dreamers and destroyers. Lovers. The night, its sky and our place within. My obsession with the night sky. Where we are and who we are as we twirl and gaze out, spin and reflect. Sometimes, we tamper our emotions and order our chaos.. The Night Sky reminds us of who we are, our true self and place within. Desire and wonder. Energy and matter. Above and below.

Some interesting stuff that I watched over the past two months in Quarantino ;)  Call My Agent (Netflix)   - Its a French tv series on the talent managers and how they handle every situation and what the job entails. It was quote relatable and interesting. 3 seasons and 18 episodes.  I also brushed up a bit on the language. Ah!Oui je parle un peu de francais ;)  Unorthodox  (Netflix)  - This was so intriguing on the Hasidic jew community set in Williamsburg, Brooklyn, New York. It exposes the extreme culture of this particular sect and their lifestyle. This series is based on a book Unorthodox : The Scandalous Rejection of My Hasidic Roots by Deborah Feldman. The fundamental belief of Hasidism is “change nothing,” or continue to follow the same lifestyles that were followed when the group began. Hasidic Jews believe that the Torah, the five books of Moses, is the literal word of God. . Esty Shapiro ( Shira Has) the protagonist is outstanding and the way she flees to Germany a

So lots of us are cribbing at this time, the entire country is in quarantine. It's been 8 days..and another 20 to go. I am just saying that make the most of it. We will never get this time back again. We will never get this break..of-course working from home but the time that we have, the extra time . Its amazing. Like i am really enjoying it. We will not even know and it will be over. It is just okay to slow down and just take a back seat. Wake up, listen to the birds chirp   🦅 - no sound of vehicles or traffic whatsoever. Cool breeze ⛰  - no pollution, clean air. Eat home food 🥘  - make your own- the way you like it - just the way you like it. Your pace  🐢 - Do things at your pace- no rush-hush- deadline. Light candles 🕯  - a different fragrance everyday- light your room-light from within Write 🖊  - I am not a seasoned writer. I can only write if I am feeling something strongly. And since the time I have been at home, feeling so many things, it's so good to